Spelling It Out

A Christian spelling out life… God's way

State Of Your Heart


“The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it” Jeremiah 17:9.

I know that if I were to ‘follow my heart’ I would do things that aren’t right and make rash decisions. If I allowed my emotions to control me I would stay in my comfort zone, never taking risks and I would doubt that anything good would come out of my problems.

Even as a Christian I am still prone to listen to this deceitful heart, lately I had to ask God to forgive me for something I knew was wrong but my ‘heart’ was telling me that it’s O.K. It’s something we all will always deal with as the Bible puts it ‘the desires of the flesh’ but I am glad that these desires do not have to overcome us and the state God wants and is continually working our hearts, to be in.
Philippians 1:6 says ‘Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.’ Thankfully we don’t have to worry about changing our own hearts, God does all of that, if we let him, sometimes we get in our own way by trying to help God out, telling him what we can and can’t do and overall being reluctant to the whole process, but the great thing about this work that God is doing in us (many know it by the name; sanctification) is that it is designed to take you out of your comfort zone, so you may feel reluctant at times, but you should see changes.

I can only speak of myself and of what others have shared with me, being a Christian from a young age I don’t have some amazing story of being the worst sinner ever and God absolutely transforming me but I am human and I slip up from time to time and I am growing (even though most times it feels like two steps forwards, one step back). This is the way my heart has (and continually is) being changed;

Asking for forgiveness- I know that when I do wrong I want to hide, confronting the person I have wronged is the last thing on my mind.(I can relate to Adam and Eve in the garden hiding from God after eating the fruit) I’ll never forget the first time I tried to hide from God, I kinda just pulled my bed sheets over my head and lay still (which I now see is really silly) but I couldn’t do that for long (since being under the sheets make me feel like I am suffocating, or maybe that was the guilt) I knew I had to tell God what had happened.
Now I see that talking to God instead of letting guilt talk you into staying low really sets you free, for me it’s like a burden is lifted, I have heard others say the feel clean afterwards, like when you just get out the bath.

The point is that our hearts naturally don’t want to ask God for forgiveness, we don’t want to look him in the face, we want to separate ourselves from him (sin makes us like this, since sin cannot be in God’s presence) but that is when we should run to him. King David is a great example of this, he always asked God for forgiveness, when he was sincerely sorry and God called him a man after his own heart (how about that).

Talking about sincerity you can only feel free/unburdened/clean when you are sincerely sorry, there’s no point saying sorry if you are not. I know for me I don’t always feel bad after doing something bad sometimes it takes awhile to sink in and a few hours of the Holy Spirit talking me around before I see the error of my ways (I know that’s bad but God is working on me) so maybe you need time to cool off before you ask for forgiveness and that’s O.K.

Forgiving others- I do have problems with this, especially when my pride has been hurt, but when I forgive someone I feel the unburdened feeling mentioned in the above point. I can think about that person or incident without feeling intense rage but it has also helped me be more merciful and compassionate to others who have wronged me and their situation, their need for God and my need for God too.

Forgiving myself- I (as well as others I have spoken to) have a tendency to replay my sins in my head, allow them to haunt me and stop me from enjoying my life, even though that happened X months ago and God has forgiven me so it really shouldn’t bother me at all. God doesn’t hold your sins against you, he has loads of cool things he wants you to do but if you’re going ‘sorry God I can’t do that, you know I did XYZ last Thursday, I know you forgave me but I still feel guilty’ well maybe your story of struggles and forgiveness for doing XYZ will help others be set free. Don’t limit God by holding on to your wrongs, let them go. (I know this is easier said than done I have and am still there myself)

These are only scratching the surface of the ways God is changing my heart not to mention all the many other issues but the two about forgiveness covers a lot of my problems and I am sure many others find that the state of their heart is not good mostly because of forgiveness issues covered above (trust me when I started writing this I did not think I was going to go on about forgiveness, so I guess someone needs to read this, even if that someone is me, if I am being let to address it).

So I would love to hear from you guys how is God changing your heart and doing a good work in you?

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